I can't shake this grump. ):

C.S. Lewis once said,

Don't bother too much about your feelings. When they are humble, loving, brave, give thanks for them; when they are conceited, selfish, cowardly, ask to have them altered. In neither case are they you, but only a thing that happens to you. What matters is your intentions and your behaviour.

God please alter my feelings, I feel selfish, cowardly, scared, and quite honestly, sorry for myself. I don't want to. Im over feeling like this. I want to feel blessed, at peace, humble, and brave.