Jan 31, 2011
Empty
Well I looked my demons in the eyes, laid bare my chest, said "Do your best, destroy me. You see, I've been to hell and back so many times, I must admit you kind of bore me." There's a lot of things that can kill a man, there's a lot of ways to die, listen, some already did that walked beside me. There's a lot of things I don't understand, why so many people lie. Its the hurt I hide that fuels the fire inside me. Will I always feel this way? So empty, so estranged.
Jan 30, 2011
Third times a charm
I saw a girl wearing a skirt similar to this on the bus the other day. It was leather and looked almost exactly like the one in the picture about, but it was a forest green! I loved it. Then as I was walking to work a few minute later, I saw a version of the same skirt in the display window at H&M on Granville. I suppose third times a charm, as I came across the skirt again on all the pretty birds! The length, style and the fact that it is leather is a trifecta of cool.
Sunday Favourite Things
Spring is just around the proverbial corner, and how better to celebrate one of my favourite seasons than to purchase some beautiful new outerwear.
This week's "Sunday Favourite Things" are my new coats. The first one is AMAZING. I got it at a vintage shop in Victoria. It's a navy blue military coat, with red piping and gold buttons! It has a slight tuxedo tail, and flairs perfectly at my bottom. It fits like a glove, and I love it.
My second new coat is halarious. It's an acid wash jean jacket I found at Value Village today. Let me preface by saying I have never owned a jean jacket. Before today I had yet to find one that fits me. This one does. It has these amazingly 80's puffy sleeves, and as you can see, it has the most wonderful acid wash. I wore it today and quite enjoyed it. I cant wait to rep it all spring and summer.
Soon enough I will post pics of me wearing my new coats. But for now you will have to make due with these pics. Hope you guys had a good weekend. It was wonderfully sunny here today and I walked up and down commercial drive, people watching. Everyone was out and about enjoying the brief moments of sunshine. It was a lovely day.
Jan 29, 2011
New girl crush. This girl is stupid cute. She has a online vintage store and sells all the clothes you wish were yours. You should probably drool over for for the next hour like I did.
Jan 27, 2011
WWAAD?
Ever since Asia my thoughts on style have changed. I spent 8 hours in the Hong Kong airport on my way back home, and when girls from Hong Kong go travelling they put on the ritz! The only question I ask myself when leaving the house now is, "what would an Asia do"? Because seriously, there is never a question of too much. Too much jewelry, patterns, textures, color, shapes? Never.
If you dont believe me check out this Japanese Street style website:
Oops
The last couple of weeks I haven't been myself. There has been a lot going on, and I became a different person. I neglected myself, ate badly, forgot that I enjoy daily walks, and generally felt sorry for myself. It needed to happen I suppose. After coming out of my grumpy, binge eating, pout, the result was not good. Huge thighs, pudgy arms and an overwhelming feeling of not being at my best. Being aware of myself and taking responsibility for my actions, the minute I realized what I was doing, I stopped. Or, more accurately, I started. Living life in a way that makes me happy, healthy, and productive.
Actually feeling less than great about myself was good for me. This New Years I told myself that I wanted to work on internal validation over external validation, and this week has been the first step in that continuing journey. All week long I have been sensitive to people's comments in regards to my physical appearance, for obvious reasons. And as it turns out, peoples comments make a surprisingly small affect on how I feel about myself. Its almost as if the haters urge me forward, make me love myself more, make me accept myself more.
Feeling chubby has actually been awesome. Most of the time I actually like the way I look and am satisfied with my appearance on a whole. This week of feeling less than satisfactory was a good reminder for me. I think the world has become obsessed with perfection, and I'm not expecting perfection, I am satisfied, in love with, and completely confident in my perfectly, imperfect me.
Jan 26, 2011
California Dreaming
Like most everyone else I know, I have summer fever. I can't wait for it to get here. This summer is going to be awesome. My hair is so long now, and its perfect. Vancouver has done wonders to my natural curl. The addition of ocean water to my hair is going to be epic. I can't stop dreaming about summer outfits. Im so sick of jeans and leggings. I want to wear shorts and dresses, tank tops and bathing suits. I want to sit by the beach, tan my white legs, bike home and drink a beer. I want to stay out late, laugh, make new friends, and get to know acquaintances better. I want to go camping, and go on road trips, I want to dance, flirt, have fun.
Here are some pics to inspire your summer wardrobe, summer adventures, and summer spirit.
Jan 25, 2011
Jan 24, 2011
Mom,
Thanks for grounding me, supporting me, praying for me, staying with me, believing in me, talking with me, laughing with me, seeing me for who I am. Thank you for trusting me, challenging me, disagreeing with me, missing me. Thank you for making me feel normal, understood, loved, appreciated, known. Thank you for listening, knowing who I am, and giving me the strength to trust myself. Thank you for being the person I need when my feelings are all mixed up and I cant get it straight. Thank you being so similar and so different, for our shared love of books and subtitled movies. Thanks for hugs, amazing hugs. Thanks for warming me up leftovers.
This is how it is.
Sometimes it needs to get bad before it can get good.
Sometimes life is hard, right before it becomes easy.
On the other side of dark, is light.
Fear is the opposite of trust.
I'd rather things change and become clear,
than stay in the muddiness of this moment.
Letting go, isn't the same as giving up.
Jan 23, 2011
Just got back.
Hey gang,
I just got back from Victoria. I had an amazing time, and will be blogging about it soon. It was great to get out of the city, reconnect with a my beautiful girlfriend and explore somewhere new. But for now Im going to watch some Modern Family as Im exhausted. Apparently getting to Victoria is not as...direct...as one would hope.
Hope you had a great weekend.
Jan 20, 2011
Jan 17, 2011
Jan 16, 2011
WRITE
I love it when writers write about writing:
Stephen King: I am the literary equivalent of a Big Mac and fries.
Ernest Hemingway: Write drunk, edit sober.
Hunter S. Thompson: The only thing to be said this time about Fear & Loathing is that it was fun to write and that's fair, for me at least because I've always considered writing the most hateful kind of work.
Elmore Leonard: I try to leave out the parts that people skip.
Isaac Asimov: If my doctor told me I had only six minutes to live, I wouldn't brood. I'd type a little faster.
Moliere: A writer is congenitally unable to tell the truth and that is why we call what he writes fiction.
William Faulkner: Writing is like prostitution. First you do it for love, and then for a few close friends, and then for money.
Robert Frost: Poets need not go to Niagara to write about the force of falling water.
Flannery O'Connor: Everywhere I go I'm asked if I think the university stifles writers. My opinion is that they don't stifle enough of them.
Robert Benchley: It took me fifteen years to discover that I had no talent for writing, but I couldn't give it up because by that time I was too famous.
George Orwell: In certain kinds of writing, particularly in art criticism and literary criticism, it is normal to come across long passages which are almost completely lacking in meaning.
Steven Wright: I'm writing an unauthorized autobiography.
William S. Burroughs: In my writing I am acting as a map maker, an explorer of psychic areas, a cosmonaut of inner space, and I see no point in exploring areas that have already been thoroughly surveyed.
Gustave Flaubert: The art of writing is the art of discovering what you believe.
Sunday Favourite Things
Homemade Tangerine Lemon Marmalade
New Necklace (thanks Sister)
Nude nail polish
The Real Life Account of Alice (in wonderland)
A Hard Day
Transitions are hard.
On the body, soul and mind.
Changes get tiresome,
Careful what you wish for.
Life gets lonely,
When you don't know where to turn.
But help shows up,
Only at your lowest low.
Hope creeps in,
If you know where to look for it.
Honesty is priceless,
And somehow makes everything ok.
Jan 13, 2011
Totally saw Leonard Nimoy on the #10 Granville!
I'd come across Leonard Nimoy's photography a few years back, and was reminded about it this week when googling Leonard.
Jan 10, 2011
The Rentals - Move On
Going back to Calgary reaffirmed that I made an awesome decision to move to Vancouver. This songs basically sums up my feelings.
Enjoy.
It's Oh So Quiet
Ever notice how nature slows up, gets quiet and calms down in anticipation for snow.
Its supposed to snow here in Vancouver tomorrow and Vancouverites (thats what they are called right) are getting all anxious in anticipation for the centimetres of snow that will be hitting our fair city in a few hours (please note the sarcasm when describing the amount of snow).
Now if we were taking our cues from nature (as was intended), we would see this blanket of snowy protection as a signal to rest, calm our minds and take the time to practice patience and quiet. Winter, cold and snow gives us an opportunity that summer and warmth do not. The opportunity to turn our minds and hearts inward, the opportunity to practice patience, creativity and organization of our internal and external worlds.
While saying this, I would be amiss not to mention that I HATE cold and snow more than anyone I know. The thought of cold weather is so repulsive to my entire person that I cannot speak, think or act when I'm cold. I go into survival mode, and all I can think about is how to get warm; fast. In situations that I have found myself to be in arctic weather, I've gone so far as to contemplate cutting open loved ones and using their warm steaming bodies as heating aids (exaggeration).
You see my point. Or maybe you dont. All I'm trying to say is that sometimes the hardest things are the most important for us to practice.
Heres something to lift your spirits:
Its called "snuggling" and its supposed to be a "moment".
Good Days
Bad Days
Wide Awake at nights
our love reduced
to moments
moments,
inbetween.
Fading and Frustrating
Jan 8, 2011
Jan 6, 2011
Hard Rats
I bought this ring while in Calgary. Its a bejewelled bee, and I love(d) it until I saw....
WHAT! This ring is sick. I wish it were mine.
Water
Do you ever go around your house eating little bits of this and little bits of that, wondering what you are craving but not being able to hit the nail on the head, until you realize that you are not hungry at all. You're thirsty. Silly cravings.
Jan 5, 2011
The Question is:
How would you define your personal style?
I asked my husband and he said: SMOKESHOW. I'll take it.
Birds are falling out of the sky! LIterally.
First of all, natural disasters. Flooding in Cali, Asia, Nashville, Pakistan, and earthquakes left, right and center....Are there more natural disasters this year or are people just noticing more?
Secondly, have you heard about all these dead birds falling out of the sky on December 31st? All over the world there were reports of dead birds falling out of the sky, and no one can explain why. Dead fish started to float up on shores around the world on December 31st too. Unexplained death's of animals freak me out!!
Thirdly, all this talk about the Mayan Calendar, 2012 and the end of the world. Who's to know how much weight to put on predictions like that?
I could go on and on about chips in our bank cards, and now in our passports, and how the government is trying to control and track us but I know I would lose some of you, so I will move on. Im not trying to be overly dramatic but it seems to me that things are changing. It seems to me that the earth is trying to send us messages. "Stop taking advantage!" How many BP Oil spills can we have before the earth starts fighting back, whatever that looks like.
I guess no matter if 2012 is the next Y2K, or if we actually have a year before the world changes as we know it, we have no control. But I know, for me and myself, Im going to live with purpose this year, just in case.
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Jan 4, 2011
Happy New Year
My friend Sandra taught me a life changing skill a couple years ago. She taught me, through example, to set goals for myself and achieve them. Prior to her in my life, I went through this worldly experience never achieving anything I wanted to do, because I would never set a goal, as I was afraid of failure. When I learnt that if I set the intention to do something, wrote it down and spoke it out loud, I would find the drive within myself to complete what I set out to do, my life changed. I started realizing that my dreams were up to me to complete. I didn't want to be the kind of person who talked about things I wanted to do but never found a way to get them done. I wanted to be a person of action, of forward motion. I wanted to become the person I am today. A person who takes risks, and completes goals. Without this lesson I would never have moved to Vancouver, and I would still be wishing I lived here.
This being said, my New Years Resolutions are always very important. These aren't the typical "workout more" or "quit smoking" that you hear again and again. These are goals that I intend to complete. Goals that will make me one step closer to being exactly who I want to be. These goals are important.
In 2011 I will:
-Take Reiki 3
-Look into Reflexology Classes
-Take a dance class
-Use my sewing machine
-Practice internal validation instead of seeking validation with my peers.
-Practice kindness, patience, and thankfulness daily.
-Once this year, set aside 2-3 days to process and release the murk at the bottom of my heart
-Find or form a group of intellectual peers who meet semi-regularly to discuss things of importance.
Thats my list. Whats on yours?
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